So I ended up at a church event with my family...
And I talked to the pastor (a woman). She’d been in an abusive relationship. She was a rape survivor. She asked if she could pray with me. I consented. Which is surprising. I usually hate people praying over me especially in the Christian sense. Because I dislike the church. But I’m a mildly spiritual person who believes that everyone’s praying to the same shit anyway. And...
mikhell asked: how you doing matey? having a shitty day or are you ok. x
I’m not afraid, at all. I’m not afraid and I wish you weren’t so level and consistent. I wish you’d get angry, get mean. Sometimes I want you, so badly, to just wind up and sock me one right in the mouth.
there is a man at my side who’s convinced i’m alive and i try to explain the poor guy that it’s way too late he seems to like me but i can’t relate i would like to get closer but christ all the time it takes and i can’t seem to keep this all straight i’ve forgotten which habits to show and which habits to fake and i’m waiting for someone to shake me and...
mikhell asked: you back??